happy silly (magic) fun

I found out about a month ago that my old 'Ace High' blog had been deleted. I didn't know blogger deleted blogs. I found a few posts on the internet archive, but most of it was gone and I'm so sad that I'll never get that back. That made me think about my blogging history, I felt bad about abandoning this one so suddenly. Bloggers have that selfish thing going on, they're not getting paid, they can do what they please, but I am disappointed in myself for leaving it this way.

In that first Ace High blog I talked myself into leaving my partner, in this blog I tried to get happy on my own. My very favourite post is still in draft mode, it's called 'Reasons I love my boyfriend' and I love him today just as happy silly (magically) as I did then.* I stopped writing this when I was pregnant, my new baby was my 'project' I didn't need my blog any more.

He's called Lucas. We live in Whitstable now. I still miss Tooting Bec.

I've settled on a new blog, after a few mis-fires, and I think this one's a stayer. My latest post on my new blog is called, 'Stalking Tooting Bec' though whether I'll publish it I don't know. I've started to look for magic again, that was always such a hobby of mine and I miss that too.

My new blog is called 'not writing' which is a bit daft, but you know my blogs are magic things, and that includes their titles. They seem to sum up all kinds of stages in my life and somehow define me. I think 'not writing' might just be my new magic blog.

I'm sorry for leaving this one without a goodbye, but my, 'Hello, I'm still here' is http://notwriting.wordpress.com/ if you're interested in my what happened next.

* I read this through and just noticed that I missed out the word fun. That's kind of interesting, and in a magic way.